Calm
Friday already...Usually at this point I'd say I've been working on some important deadline or doing something that seems to have taken up all my time. The truth is I haven't. For sure, I have been busy, but not manic, running at 100mph as I used to. I'm not feeling the need to rush from one thing to the next these days, work every waking hour, lurch from one activity to the next with undying velocity or even update my blog on a daily basis. I'm enjoying a slower pace, reading a book just because, scrapbooking for fun again and just spending with myself and my family. The rewards have been a marked resurgence in my creativity, energy and the big one: Happiness.
So why the change? I think the NAETs is a big part of the difference. If you had asked me a year ago that I would be travelling this path I would have thought you insane. I never thought I'd be completely grug free ever again. Last night I spent some time organizing the Aspergers Syndrome and NAETs/Diet posts into categories for easier reference. (I'm sure I've missed some so I'll revisit this at some point) As I read back a year ago, I was amazed at just how far we've come. It's amazing how you quickly your perceptions change and you forget. NAETs has truly been a life altering experience for us as a family and I can't begin to put a value on our new quality of life.
As you know I finished my course of NAETs a few weeks ago. Ella and Luke will finish theirs tomorrow. It's hard to believe that this day is finally here. There's a good chance a few more allergies may crop up, like it did for me this past week, but for the most part these allergy clearings are permanent. I have been assured that the only way they may come back is if the body undergoes a very traumatic physical or emotional experience, and even then they would not return to the same severity. So a few more observations to share:
1. My immune system is stronger. Usually when I start back at the gym I get a cold, but it's been 2 weeks now of working out hard 5 days per week and feeling awesome.
2. You never quite know how severe your allergy is until you go through the clearing. As you know Luke had 20 plus clearings to get through. We did the big ones first but it's actually been the smaller ones that have had been the hardest for him. I would never have guessed he had a nut allergy but when he went through the clearing he became so irritable that he refused to be touched. The 25 hours after were also difficult due to his volatile behaviour. Similarly, the chocolate/caffeine clearing that we thought would be a walk in the park, had Luke so hyper he was jumping on our practitioners table as if it were a trampoline and then proceeded to lash out at her physically.
3. Ella is so much more energetic now. Teacher parent conferences were last week and she received glowing reports. She's made a giant leap forwards socially, academically and in her gross motor skills. This is a little girl who has always struggled in the latter but she's making up for lost time. The speech therapist also confirmed she has caught up on her speech. She has a particularly hard time with the Candida clearing which totally makes sense as she has always been prone to yeast infections. None as yet.
4. Eric has just bought the new Air Force uniform and since wearing it he's had crazy itching on his arms. We've determined through NAETs that the new uniform is causing an allergic reaction. The fabric is chemically treated so that they can be pulled out of the dryer and worn without any ironing or starching. Eric had a clearing today for his uniforms so I'll let you know. Makes me wonder how many other poor personnel are itching like crazy.
5. Another cool little detail. Ella has had a virus this week. We've also had a resurgence of bedwetting just this week and Pat, our NAET practitioner, was able to muscle test and not only tell us that she was suffering from a virus but that it is affecting her kidneys and bladder. Really cool stuff. I will definitely be finding a naturpath when we move to Denver.
I have also been undergoing EMDR therapy for the past month. It's not something I have taked about until now partly because I was very skeptical about the process and almost didn't go through with it, but also because it's been an emotional process dealing with some of the difficult events that took place during my childhood. I was finally given a diagnosis yesterday of "complex trauma". A sequence of difficult events in my childhood combined with my sensitivity caused my brain to overload and basically malfunction leaving my completely hyper and OCD over the past 20 odd years. My therapist has confirmed that the eating disorders I experienced became a coping mechanism for me and so finally I'm getting some long sought after answers. The vivid details are now fading and those memories that troubled me so much don't seem to matter anymore. I am calmer, more laid back and definitely less OCD. Very happy to say farewell to some of these, unitl now, deeply embedded memories.
So, this is what it must be like to be normal, to find peace and be happy and it's a bonus that it's all drug free.
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What an amazing journey you have been on. The good and the bad, while they seem like night and day - maybe, not so much.
So glad you are feeling better. Tackling emotional issues in our lives is never fun or easy but worth the effort, Down the Road.
Bless you, my friend - great layout. Keep going...for yourself.
Posted by:zalaine | April 04, 2008 at 02:44 PM
Anna, so glad to hear that you are feeling so much better in all things in your life. A long journey, but as you said, one well worth it. Even at CHA in February you had a peace about you I hadn't seen before. Blessings to you. Deb
Posted by:Debbie Pearson | April 05, 2008 at 05:20 AM
Wow. Just wow. Isn't it funny how seemingly little things (food) can have such an effect on us all! So happy for you and your family - not only will it change everything, but it will also make that move this summer easier! ;)
Posted by:Trude | April 07, 2008 at 08:08 AM